Wednesday, February 15, 2012


Months have passed since our last blog post... about 9 to be exact. One month after our second miscarriage we found out that we were pregnant...again! What a circus ride. Of course, following our second loss, we assumed we knew for certain now what God had in mind for us. But as we are always discovering and never finished learning, we don't know at all what God is up to. Our third pregnancy came with plenty of emotions. Absolute dread and fear were at the top of my list. I was terrified of the disappointment I was sure was coming. To my surprise and our joy, that little bean kept growing... and growing and growing! And on January 12, 2012 a beautiful 8lb 10oz baby girl was born into our eager arms. We named her Alessandra. Defender of humanity. And that is our prayer for her. That sh
e would grow a heart for all people and show God's love to the world.

She is pure joy. A lot of work, a lot of sleepless nights and tired days... But when I look at her, I can't help but see a beautiful miracle. God's promise, our faith, a life lesson right there on her face. We intend to raise her in a way that reveals God's amazing love for her and His world.

Late one night, as I went to get Allie from her crib for that 2am feeding, I found her so wet that she had soaked through her pj's and her swaddling blanket. It broke my heart that she had been laying like that for who knows how long. I changed her diaper, wiped her down and put clean clothes on her. I sang her, "you are my sunshine," I swaddled her in a clean blanket and while she ate, I rocked her and I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. Honestly, I didn't expect to be thinking about adoption again this soon after Allie was born. But there I was in tears at the thought of the countless babies in this world who depend on the love of an adult that simply is not there. As a new mom, I want to be the one that rescues her. From a nightmare, from a pain, from a soaking wet diaper. Some people want to know if we are still planning to adopt since we now have Allie. More than ever the answer is YES. With more urgency than ever before, we want our son home.